A new life arrives . She is given away . Is the first experience of this life one of trauma ? Aside from the one of leaving a safe womb does the separation from her beginnings of life impact her sense of comfort and trust ?
She is born with a trusting heart no matter the circumstances . She loves deeply , so deeply that it surprises even her .
Welcomed into a home , into a family , that wants to be what it is not . There is love . There is love that battles within itself and with it’s own brokenness . Her love , in innocence , rises to the surface in moments of celebration . Like when she awakens first thing every morning , before opening her eyes , then is a joyous smile across her face. Did her soul choose to know the indescribable ache while also choosing to carry a joy filled heart and an ever replenishing trust ? The brokenness of the family integrated more trauma into her original wound and in quietness she finds a healer , herself . Did her soul choose ?
And in her quietness she sometimes dreams of knowing wholeness . Enchanted by the sight of the moon and the stars she finds a sense of rootedness in them . And when she is near water and it’s powerful timelessness then she feels held by the breath of all life past , present and future .
And to the bees and the dreams and the rivers and the streams .
I belong to the mountains and the hills and to the stars in the sky .
Wherever they came from embrace them . Embrace them and breathe them in so as to experience the sweet release that is freedom . Now live and breathe out . Feel the arrival of luscious laughter and joy needing no reason to be . Just be .
Deeply alive to feel it all so true . An easy road not so, though magnificent in grace and inexplicable in sorrow . Either one may be manipulated away should we choose it . Better to recognize the beauty living in the pain . The stars in the sky as you see them do you wonder silently to yourself ” Am I seeing only the remains of this brilliant, fiery light ? Am I looking straight into it’s death and seeing the beautiful glow ? ”
Each moment we embrace and each breath we take notice of is our gift to eternity .