To be better than me ,
rather than someone else .
Where is the stopping point ?
Who knows ? And that is the point .
Limitless .
Only in death will I stop only I won’t stop because in death I am born .
A train ride so swift and me, a sleepy soul . Like a child whose enthusiasm burns so high and then flickers away . The motion of the train lulls me into sleep .
When was the last time I was alone in a foreign city ? Was I ever …really ? Hard to recall now . I love the newness ! And yet it feels old . Old in that companion sort of a way . Ha ha ! There is no getting lost when I am always near .
The city is alive and yet somber too . This world has taken it’s toll on you and me too .
Walking within a city is to know her . Letting the crevices of warmth reveal themselves alongside the nudges of grandeur and completing one chapter .
It is delightful that I’ve come upon two of the experiences I’ve hoped for on the first day . The river Seine and a clear view of the Tour Eiffel . Oui ! Oui ! I walk across the river going from the right to the left bank and back again .
Nearly as delightful is winding my back to my Paris flat . . I didn’t get lost , hardly skipped a beat trusting my intuition .
Oooh la la ! I notice men noticing me in that subtle way the nicer ones do . And so around the corner I went to sit outside at a cafe with a hot cup Ceylon tea and listened to my surroundings .Paris has welcomed me .
I’ve learned that it does not suit me too well to sit in the quiet of hope but , rather , to be in the wild of it . This is not to say that there isn’t great value in quieting the mind . There is , there truly is . There are those delicious times when hope lives it’s mightiest in the doing , in the wild side , the wild side of hope .
Will you walk along with me ….towards the door ?
Yes I will .
I will hold your hand . will you hold mine ?
Yes I will .
Oh wait ! Just a moment . I’m suddenly not so sure . If you’re scared then I’m scared too .
what to do ? What to do ? !
Gentle smiles and quiet glances soothed away the fears . For now… the way was clear .
I could only go as far as the door . You had to do the rest .
Stepping back to let you go and leaving tears upon your cheek .
Our adventure began long ago and the time has come to start again .
It may be a difficult road to feel things so deeply , but also a magnificent one .
There is an inexplicable sorrow that visits the heart at times . In a moment it appears like going around bend in the road and ….. suddenly beholding the sight of a mountain seeming larger than life . It appears and can be manipulated away if we choose .
What if we open the door and walk right into it ? Perhaps it is the past . The moments that we let slide by without giving recognition to their beauty or pain .
Wherever they came from embrace them . Embrace them and breathe them in so as to experience the sweet release of freedom . Now live and breathe out while feeling the arrival of luscious laughter and joy . Joy needing no reason for being . It simply is there for you .
I belong to the birds and to the trees
And to the flowers and the sky .
and to the bees and to the dreams ,
And the rivers and the streams .
I belong to the mountains and the rolling hills
And to the stars in the sky .
My beginning knows no bounds .
Endings become beginnings become endings become beginnings .
The light and the joy that lives naturally . That is home . When heart cracks and welcomes despair , that too is home . And when it is all embraced as one we are whole again …..and again and again . Clarity visits and opens doors allowing for action while trust is the confidence that grows the wings ! 